april is arriving in one day's time. another month has gone by and i've yet to settle down.

the wait is excruciating. it feeds on my happiness and joy, killing me day by day. my heart is left (not at outram park) in the cold after being rip-opened.

jus as the smile is fading, there is some unknown forces bringing the two eyebrows together. laughters seem so distant to me now. suddenly, my cheeks are burning hot. my vision is blurred. what is ahead of me, i cant be sure.

i need to be strong. people always say that you have to go through the dark before you can see the first ray of light. that's the darkest moment. i am struggling to see the light. i have to fight the darkness and brave through the storm.

anyway, thank you so much to those who have been reading my blog to get my latest, making sure i'm alright. i'm lucky to have so many concerned friends. =)

honestly, i'm not. everyday is painful, so stressful. sometimes, tears can just well up. but somehow, i manage to control them. oh well, i know it's not very smart but i'm just not used to cry in front of people. sometimes, i guess i've just have to learn to share my feelings verbally, not by blogging it.

emo is my middle name.