starting to dislike her simply because...

i think she has a serious problem. her mood can change drastically and unreasonably (hmm..or maybe unreasonable to us but i guess she should know it best, lah). sometimes, she just confuses me. i don't know what makes her unhappy about; and when she's upset. i don't understand why she is sad, who is getting on her nerves and how can she not be so insensitive towards the feelings of other whom she cares for.

whenever i asked her why she's like this, she will find some reasons. but i think it's an excuse. there is no reason for one to be unhappy, upset, angry, jealous about. i believe whatever reasons she gives are CRAP! she has the same problem that happen couple of years ago. angry for ridiculous reasons, upset over microscopic stuff.

sometimes, i think people just tend to remember the not-so-nice part and totally forget about how sweet and caring the person has always been. you forget how much love, care and concern that person has showered you with because you simply take it for granted. you tend to amplify the negatives and intensify your scrutiny of the person's actions that piss you off. because so such magnification, she has "successfully" making herself; and others upset. well done, girl!

the truth is not everyone is like you. don't expect people to think and behave the way you want it. there are differences in people and that makes it interesting. every new person you meet is a mystery. when you "unwrap" them (figuritively), you'll be surprised because who knows it is a rare gem. isn't that makes gift-unwrapping exciting?! i mean seriously, if you want people to behave the way you want and talk the things you like, why don't you clone them and program them?

i hope you get what i'm trying to say. THEY ARE GEMS AND THEY ARE THE REASON TO YOUR SMILE. without them, you won't be who you are today. give yourself and others a chance and space. love them like you love yourself (or maybe you should learn to love yourself first).

be sweet and nice. don't deprive yourself and others.