I AM A MEAN GIRL! (at least i think i am one now.)

my words are full of thorns and sacarsm. it's kinda getting out of hand, i feel. i hate being like that because it just shuts people up. i guess it leaves no room for people to talk to me. it's just a turn-off to talk to me. i don't want to be friend-less or lose anybody because of my lousy form of communications. oh gosh, isn't it an irony?! a communication major graduate-to-be doesnt know how to communicate with people properly. =(

it seems like my short-temper has made a comeback. not sure if i'm too sensitive or what, i feel that my mood can change drastically in a short time. like one moment i can get angry; then the next moment i can be normal and talk about it. the sudden transition of mood scares me. is it that because i can't develop the anger into a "full-blown" one or is it i can get over it real fast?

i used to think before i get angry. i'll try to reason things with myself before getting mad at people or things. but now, i think i just fa xiao jie pi qi. i dont want to be like that! it makes me like an unreasonable girl and feels like a spoiled brat. I AM NOT!