been living in Disneyland for the past five days. it's a wonderful fantasy world that sometimes you don't feel like getting out. but well, as i've said, reality hurts but it's the truth. and yes, reality always sets in on the sixth and seventh day when i got home. as much as i'm rational most of the time, i also want to live in Disneyland. gosh! come to think about it, it's like a cycle. fantasy fantasy fantasy fantasy fantasy reality reality; and i'm going in and out of it.

school is quite a fantasy actually because all are rather theoretical. students are the happiest group of people in the world. no worries at all. society is different because it's really hands-on practical. everything is new to you. everyday you'll meet new people and get different experience. the thing is people change when they move from one realm to another. for instance, from school to society. everything changes. differences are widen and magnified.

really have no confidence in overcoming at this point. at least a good seven years. it's surely not going to be smooth sailing. can already see two major obstacles to overcome.

she thinks that i'm a good girl but he thinks that i should be rebellious at times; and i think i know my limit. she see no future in it but he believes that i should learn to take risks; and i believe it's time for me to move out of my comfort zone. she said "wait" and "fruitless". he asked "is it a big problem?" and i said if we have faith and trust to overcome all odds. it's simple to say but it's not easy to work it out. it's simple to be together but not easy to maintain it.

not too greedy, for now need three C's will do: convince, confidence, commitment.

despite all these thoughts, one still has to eat to generate more complicated thoughts. cant believe we are taking train to have dinner cos the car is with my sis. gosh, i'm such a spoiled brat. haha..but i guess it's goin to be fun since my dad doesn't take train; probably once or twice every year..haha..