the sky was gloomy and threatening as the dark clouds floated in early in the morning. it rained, finally, only in the afternoon.

the recent TVC - beautifully imperfect by MCYS touched many people's hearts. i didnt think very much of the video until the woman said "...it's these small things that you remember. the little imperfections that make them perfect for you..."

now whoever is reading this, touch your heart and asked yourself if you're guilty of using your own ideals, standards and values as benchmarks to judge somebody whether he or she is good enough for us or good enough to us. when the person appears to be in deep contrast with the projected standards we've got on them, we often feel hurt, angry, betrayed and confused. we may then begin to drive him or her out away by becoming cold and aloof, unappreciative, selfish, unconcerned and uncaring.

and yes, i'm guilty of that.

the truth is, he show me exactly who i am and how much he care for me through everyday behaviors. he woke up early in the morning to prepare breakfast (scramble egg and bacon) and rushed back quickly from classes to make dinner (seafood spaghetti). he knew exactly what was on my mind. he always makes his presence felt.

but what have i done for him? i was pissed off with him and argued over something that i've promised to give it some time. again, i made a broken vow.

honestly, i'm sick of the topic and it seems that i always get so worked up when we are on it. the first time we were on the topic, we ended up angry at and upset with each other. then, i thought avoiding the topic seemed to be a solution. however, i was wrong. it snowball-ed into something more serious.

i was terribly selfish. i thought by showing the way and putting in some effort, he wld learn and do the same for me. but little did i know, i was so wrong. i led myself to believe in it. unfortunately, when things didnt go as i expected, i blew my top off. in the moment of anguish, i forgot that my promise.

changes dont jus appear like that. it needs time. i guess i was jus too anxious to see the changes that it didnt occur to me that it was your emotional barrier. oh, what a wonderful understanding person i am.

love is simple but nobody says it's easy.