= delayed post =

i guess the blogger server was down or somethin as i didnt manage to publish this post.

yay! i've got the confirmation from Shape Run and i've 20% off nike women running products from labor day's onwards!


today was a bit busy. haven really got the time to sit down in front of the computer. ha! it's a good sign though! =)


cant wait for tmr after 5pm! *smile

a monotonous day for me.

i went tuition in the morning. literally went by feet. i'm so proud of myself! the house is jus behind Sembawan Shopping Mall, which is five bus stops away from where I'm staying. i walked for twenty minutes. it wasnt that bad actually, apart from the hot Sun.

jus went to check the Shape Run Registration. it's closed cos the registration is already full. oh no, i bet my cousin hasnt registered yet lorz. hmm..jus hopefully, i can run faster and quickly finish my lonely 10k lahz! ehh..kexi and her wishful thinkings. tsk tsk!

come to think about it, i dont even know if i'll get it. apparently, i gave them the wrong email address and it's impossible for them to send me the confirmation letter. the worst is, i've already paid. argh! since when i'm so blur =( i paid 35bucks (for the race pack) + 10bucks (for 6mths of subscription) so in total, it's 45bucks. haha! dont tell anybody that i was a marketing major 3 years ago. anyway, back to the original email story. i email-ed them the correct email and hopefully, they are nice enough to send me the confirmation letter to the correct email address.

searched through my cabinet and i managed to find 30RMB. ha! see if my mom or sis has left over from last time, maybe i can jus kop from them. i bet my mom wont be interested to go China after the last trip. haha!

and i'm such a sweet girl and how concern i am that i didnt even know something happened. i hope he is alright.

the feeling is jus to wonderful when the first thing you hear is this song...

and i've jus signed up for Shape Run 2009. yay! running with my cousin. cool manz!

'look where you are going swimming!'

haha. i went swimming with my dad tis morning and we shared a lane with this lady. she was swimming with freestyle and i interchanged between freestyle and breast stroke. this lady was super funny cos' she nv checked what's ahead of her. when she was approaching me in front, she jus kept swimming and i had to swim away from her so that she wont bulldoze me. after a while, i was quite tired of swimming; keeping in mind to swim away from her.

i found tat it's quite amusing cos she didnt really check what's ahead of her, jus kept swimming. even when she reached the sides. i wonder if she ever banged onto the wall before. hmm..

one of the boxes of mochi my sis brought back from japan. she told me was black sesame. then we realised it's red bean. hope she can learn how to pronouce black sesame before she goes to japan.

she asked me a silly question today: "what do you call the mother and father of transformers?" hmm..anybody?

joke no. 2 -
tutor: what is 'popular'?
7 years old boy: 'popular' is the place where you buy presents for your friends, and buy your pens and books.

haha! err..i hope whoever is reading this is laughing. by the way, this conversation really did take place. =) yARpZ!

last night, i was sorting out the pictures and i realized we were missing my birthday month's pic. sadz! i love yesterday - good luck lunch! and i love my fake smile too. haha..i'm such a natural faker (oxymoron).

the Fangs have jus moved to Antarctica. it's freezing out there and the fireplace in our house is not working. fantastic! and i declare that MY life sucks to the core. =)

i wonder what has exactly happened. you are so near, yet so far away from me. we barely exchange a few words everyday. in fact, we dont even speak to each other like we used to. i can really count the number of time words we used. in the past, we discuss anything under the sun, the moon and the stars. now, we didnt even talk much about our favourite sport.

is it me or is it that there is no more common topic between us? i guess i've become a walking zombie and you've become an eccentric old man. because of the difference, we no longer speak much to each other. it saddens me. really. i wish things will be back to normal quickly. the silence is killing me.

i like this clip a lot, not cos of the little girl but the idea of judgement.

people always say 'dont judge a book by its cover' and actions often speak louder than words. shamefully, we judge people. do we even realise that when we judge people, they are judging us too?! it's hurtful but still we choose to do it. just how many wrong judgments have we put on the people around us? i guess it's easier to count the correct ones. because of all this untrue judgements, many misunderstandings have created as we choose to believe in our perceptions.

we think that we are very educated; but when it comes to moral, i guess we all need to learn from scratch.

ha! after 1 day and 1 night of search, i finally settle down with Mary had a little lamb. by the pictures and description, i believe you have guessed the main idea of this blog - sadist!

so here goes the theme song..

yes! it's in japanese, which is more kawaii than the one we learned.

while allowing crank to stream more, i shall blog.


hmm..honestly, the weather arent really fantastic these days. raindrops can just suddenly dropped on some days and scorching hot sun on other days. well, not literally raining; just that the sky is gloomy.


i think i've deprived childhood. i'm eating something what the kids (in my era) used i eat - biscuit that shaped like a fish! apparently, it's super nice and makes me happy. amazing, huh? ooh..'m lovin' it! everytime before i eat one, i must make it 'swim' in the air. i wonder how does it taste like to add milk into a bowl of fish biscuits. ooh, shall try that for my..hmm..lunch tomorrow. yay!

recently, i've been thinking (just to prevent them from rusting). you know, when we were kids, we were pretty tired too. i mean, do you feel like your arms and shoulders were breaking? or have you ever had muscle ache on your thighs?

now, imagine that when you were little (once again) and your parents were like giants to you. before you can cross the road, you had to raise your hand high up in the air so that you can reach your dad or mom's hand. as you were crossing, the green man started to flash, your parents had quicken their pace. in order for you (little ones) to catch up with your parents' pace, you had to run.

see! kids can be easily exhausted without our parents knowing it.

as i was writing all these craps here, i would like to share something. quite funny thou. it happened when i was really young and i had really short legs. okay, not something i should glorify about. i remembered my mom always asked me to jump over a big puddle of water whenever it rained. there was no other way to go because that stretch of road was flooded. so, whenever i tried to jump, i would always end up creating the biggest splash. apparently, i had never failed to land on the deepest depression (given my undeveloped legs). so, i used to hate rainy days cos' i always got scolded by my mom for 'purposely jumping into the water'. ha! have mercy on me!

poor children, we were always being misunderstood.

the sky was gloomy and threatening as the dark clouds floated in early in the morning. it rained, finally, only in the afternoon.

the recent TVC - beautifully imperfect by MCYS touched many people's hearts. i didnt think very much of the video until the woman said "...it's these small things that you remember. the little imperfections that make them perfect for you..."

now whoever is reading this, touch your heart and asked yourself if you're guilty of using your own ideals, standards and values as benchmarks to judge somebody whether he or she is good enough for us or good enough to us. when the person appears to be in deep contrast with the projected standards we've got on them, we often feel hurt, angry, betrayed and confused. we may then begin to drive him or her out away by becoming cold and aloof, unappreciative, selfish, unconcerned and uncaring.

and yes, i'm guilty of that.

the truth is, he show me exactly who i am and how much he care for me through everyday behaviors. he woke up early in the morning to prepare breakfast (scramble egg and bacon) and rushed back quickly from classes to make dinner (seafood spaghetti). he knew exactly what was on my mind. he always makes his presence felt.

but what have i done for him? i was pissed off with him and argued over something that i've promised to give it some time. again, i made a broken vow.

honestly, i'm sick of the topic and it seems that i always get so worked up when we are on it. the first time we were on the topic, we ended up angry at and upset with each other. then, i thought avoiding the topic seemed to be a solution. however, i was wrong. it snowball-ed into something more serious.

i was terribly selfish. i thought by showing the way and putting in some effort, he wld learn and do the same for me. but little did i know, i was so wrong. i led myself to believe in it. unfortunately, when things didnt go as i expected, i blew my top off. in the moment of anguish, i forgot that my promise.

changes dont jus appear like that. it needs time. i guess i was jus too anxious to see the changes that it didnt occur to me that it was your emotional barrier. oh, what a wonderful understanding person i am.

love is simple but nobody says it's easy.

to those who are very curious of what i've been doing at home. i dont jus make cookies. i make my own milkshake using avocado..yummy! it's good for cholesterol and complexion (which i believe). ha! though i didnt manage to find anything scientific to prove it yet, still people do produce it as facial foam rite. so it cant be that far off lah. - according to FKX's theory.

ingredients: 1 avocado (of cos), 1 cup of low-fat milk, sugar, ice-cubes. and then jus grind, shake and mix them all up using the machine and ta-da! the FRESH avocado milkshake is ready to be served. =)it was raining cats and dogs early in the morning. the atmosphere was dull and everything seemed to be very still. the mood was gloomy. the rain was so heavy that i could hardly see my fingers when i stretched them out.

people always say sunshine after the rain. and i thought for a while...yes, i found my sunshine! he was there when i was so down and discouraged. he has always been there for me to tolerate my nonsense and remind me to be strong. the sun is out and i'm smiling again. this is how we communicate on msn. woohoo! i have a love-hate relationship with technology.the sunshine i was talking about! =) when the sun was out the next day, we met up for dinner at northpoint. it may sound bizarre to you but yes, i always love the idea of him coming to my turf. it make me feel appreciated and important cos he has made an effort from the west to come meet me in the north. haha! sounds silly and selfish but yes, i'm lovin' it! being the greedy me, i wanted to ask for more but i guess i shouldnt, jus like this is good enough for now.

we went to watch movie the next day. it was quite an enjoyable day initially but after that, i spent my day worrying for him. my mind was in a whirlpool. lots of thoughts jus flashed across my head. seeing him suffering such an excruciating pain makes my heart aches.

to the appendix-less: please do get well soon and we shall start our cam-whoring all over again! =)

cheers!

SIGNS

jus wan to share this short film. it's really sweet, isnt it?

i guess all i have to say is cherish your loved ones like you will never see them again. let your actions speak; tell them how much you love them today and... everyday!

these days, i was thinking about life, humans, you and me. it seems like we are robots ourselves but of cos with emotions.

when our parents bring us into this world, they have already "programmed" us with their DNA strands. they bring us up and nurture us; hope that one day we are all able to live up to their expectations. being an elite in sgp is jus simply not enough. in such a competitive climate, we have to be the cream of crop; THE elite among the pool of elites.

we wake up every morning to prepare to go to work. after eight hours of slogging in the office, we go back home to rest and we do that for the next four or five days before the weekends arrive. then we re-energise ourselves before we start the cycle all over again. this is what 16 0r 17 years of education has taught us or led us to be.

doesnt this sound like a cycle? we came to this world to receive education before we can contribute to the economy. to be a useful person, one has to achieve first class honors and only that it is considered successful. but touch your heart, are you really happy?

or have you forgotten what is happiness? achievements only bring you this much of satisfactory and this much of joy in your life. so what really makes you happy?

tathump..tathump..tathump..tathumptathumptathumptathump.. my racing heart. just feel that i've irregular heartbeat. sometimes, it is jogging, and sometimes running. other times, it sprints.

recently, i've started baking and i made cookies. =) and oh by the way, they are super edible okay! my first attempt was pretty successful. my parents and sis said that they were quite nice to eat but kind of sweet.

so, on my second attempt, i made sugar-free and preservative-free milo cookies. haha! but it didn't go so well. there is no milo taste at all.. dotz

like what i was told by the people around me, don't give up! my next plan is to make cashew and walnut cookies. hmm..maybe also cereal cookies and that is if i steal from my mom. haha..healthy cookies for the Fangs! oh but poor thing, they have to keep eating the cookies till i got tired of baking or occupied with something else. hopefully, they dont beg me to stop baking..ha!

anyway, any takers for my cookies? i make healthy cookies. smiles!