confused. frustrated. i dont know. really. is it just me or the stabilizer? or maybe the chemical compound itself is already kinda volatile?

like my dad always says, it's the singer, not the song. come to think about it, i guess it's me. mistake. shouldn't blame the stailizer or the chemical compound. oh gosh, probably i accidentally added undesirable foreign particles in the process of stablizing it. i dont know why i've been so careless but i hope the experiment works and the results won't differ much.

and yes, what i've done. well, like i always said, what is done can never be undone. so why am i still thinking about it. if the result is different, so be it. i mean who knows, there may be some unexpected positive results. if you never try, you'll never know =) at least, so far i haven't live with regrets.

but honestly, who am i trying to kid? i still think about it. yes, it's a disguise. on the surface it seems the same to me, but still there is something missing or already have changed that i didn't take notice of. maybe it's me again. i'm being too sensitive. =/ whatever it is, i hope nothing has changed and the results is either the same or even more positive.

anyways, HAPPY B'DAY, DADDY!