today had been a good day! although it was my super long day, i quite enjoyed today's lectures.

in my culture industries lecture, we had a guest speaker - Kumar! he is a superb speaker. he poked fun of the local policies, the races and others. he also spoke about his career and a little about his history. he also talk about how he managed to overcome all those nasty words used on him.

i think i have to agree on what he said:
1. "live for yourself!"
2. "you have to accept yourself before others can accept you."
3. "there's a reason for everyone to be in this world."

well actually, it's really quite true. but how many of us can do it? or maybe i'm speaking for myself. like i've mentioned yesterday, i think i've somehow lost my mafia-ness. i used to be able to dismiss all the comments and remarks. in the past, i can convince myself - "it doesn't matter what they say about you, as long as it pleases you. it doesn't matter what you do, as long as you don't live with regrets; and don't do anything that is against your conscience."just felt that these days i've becoming more reliant on people. sometimes i feel that i'm no longer indepedent; and not doing stuff myself using my own hands and my own means.

i mean it's really nice to have friends around you to help. but i don't want to rely on them all the time. after all, i should learn to say "I CAN DO IT"; and be the cool mafia all over again =)

i got very restless in the evening. it rained. i can't go out. i can't jog. maybe i shall do it tmr evening. alright, i think it's time for me to do my projects...Zzz...