didn't realise i haven been updating my post till damien commented that. (haha..ok, it's my live feed not working, not yours.) *sigh..honestly, i haven really got time for myself. what i mean is that i'm dying for retail therapy and a movie at some nice place. for the past 36hours, i've been really busy (and i realised i haven't said what i'm busy with) with assignments, workshop and my man. oh well, i'm sure he'll read this post because he has been stretching his neck, waiting for this post. so..i'm sorry that i've been so unconcerned and insensitivity.

i've to apologise to him because it's just so atrocious how i've reacted to him on thurs night when he called.

DA: "hello."
KX: (happily) "hello, you're awake!"
DA: (weakly) "i'm going to see a doctor."
KX: "who's going with you?"
DA: (can't remember but i guess he was speechless)

i mean, "hello kexi..what's wrong with you manz.." after the couple of seconds of awkward silence, i corrected myself by saying "i'll go with you." seriously, i felt like slapping myself for being so insensitive and sounded so unconcerned.

so we went NUH and spent like at least 4hrs there before Da could wink and smile at me again. it was quite a horrible experience actually to see someone in pain till like that. i think my pms is also not as terrible as that. at least i dont have to go through six injections.

but one thing that i felt good about is the kinship. Da's father came down when it was already like 2am near 3. it's so heartwarming! =) it just showed how much concerns and love the family memebers have for each other. it reminded me of my mom and sis. i just sprained my ankle and they rushed down within half an hour to pick me up so that the next day i can go see a sensei.

talking about that incident. it was super funny. lucky my dad didn't buy a manual car else i can't drive myself to see the sensei the next day; or maybe lucky i didn't sprain my right ankle. after seeing the sensei, my mom suggested to go near by for lunch. i was joking about how cruel she was to ask a 'bai-ka' to drive her for lunch and she sits comfortably on the passenger's seat. i guess there's no relationship more important than kinship.

coming back to the main topic: so i went to visit Da the next day. then i told him some "bedtime" stories and he fell asleep. again, before he slept, he asked what if i won't be around when he woke up. i broke my promise. i stepped out to buy something to fill my empty stomach. then when i came back, i saw him sleeping and thought that he didn't know. when he woke up, then i realised he knew i was away for awhile. how silly of me!