there was an earthquake in my room over the weekend. the tiles popped up. due to the uneven ground, the shelves were shaky and my stuff on the shelves were found on the ground. the destructions were as follows:

oh well, the feet wasn't destroyed but indirectly it was affected. apparently, because my room was super dusty, i tried to clean my feet using my another feet. so due to carelessness, my left heel "pulled" the right toe nail. it was really painful, i swear! then it bled since the sides were detached from the toe.

anyway, after the little incident, i suddenly thought of WWII because if i'm not wrong, one of the way that victims were tortured is to pull their nails out. i think it's totally crazy. i already made so much noise when nail was dangling, let alone them.

ahh! going for class.

i just don't get it. is it me or is is her? why is she acting like that for the past 24hours? alright, maybe i shouldn't have snapped at her. but she didn't have a friendly tone either (hmm..or maybe i'm too sensitive..). i can't remember exactly what happened but but i guess it goes like this:

it started yesterday morning. she asked me if i wanted to go to 'sing to the dawn' premiere this wednesday. then i told her i'll have to think about it because of my schedule. after that, she insisted that i gave her an answer. (i mean it's not that i kept quiet or something. i told you i need to think for a while right!) so, tat was when i snapped at her and said "don't want lah, don't want to go already lah."

and then we got into the car and as usal, drove them to have breakfast. apparently, my mom wanted to go thomson plaza to have breakfast. after that, she voiced out that the food there wasn't to her likings so she suggested the coffee shop at sin ming. and because nobody confirmed with me or anything, i just made a u-turn to thomson plaza since i'm on the lane 1. when i went into the filter lane, my mom then said "i thought we are going to the coffee shop". i just kept quiet because what can i say. if she really can't eat anything there, at most i u-turn again. nothing is a problem. but i guess she was hopping mad, she just raised her voice "ahh..never mind lah..eat here, eat here lor."

the thing is it's always a problem when we are deciding where to have our meals. apparently, there will bound to have objections after one suggested somewhere. so sometimes, we will say the person who pays shall have the biggest say; but even so, there's still objection. so sometimes, they make the driver decide. oh well, the fact is i'm fine to eat anywhere. so i'm not the major problem. so you can see, how confusing a driver, and that's me, can be sometimes. remembered there was once i drove them to the wrong place. but seriously, as long as there's something to fill you up, does it really matter anywhere?!

so anyway, it happend again yesterday morning. i drove them to the wrong place to have breakfast (haha..no funny). seriously, it's really a wrong timing to make such mistake. oh well, a hungry man is an angry man but i figured she's not hungry lah. it's just that i had snapped at her 15mins ago. the angst is there but not travelling at the full speed yet. but after i made such a mistake, her temper is going at full speed.

to you: hello, if you're not happy to eat in there, then say it out. ok, i mean you have already voice it out. but it just a wrong turn. if you like it, you can tell me to u-turn. don't have to sound like as if i'm forcing posion down your throat. if you think i've a horrendous attitude, i think you're not better off than me. at least, i admit that i've an attitude problem at times. by the way, just in case you didn't figure that out, i didn't purposely drove you to the place you don't want to eat. it just a freaking mistake, believe it or not. but if you want to be an angry person, there's nothing i can do because that's your problem, not mine.

it's very silly of me. as i was writing, i think i'm quite affected by it actually; else i wouldn't have blogged about it either. anyway, i just hope evening comes quickly. it make me sound like a coward or hermit. but i'm sure i'm not running away. it's just that i think i need some space to think about it. don't know why but i suddenly feel like saying 'fucking hell' to someone.

DISCLAIMER: the 'someone' is NOT her, it is the next person that step on my tail.

this is so maddening! it's not the first time. apparently, whenever my dad goes golfing, he will forget about everything. He only remembers his golf balls, his clubs, his bag. oh and most importantly, his passport!

so as usual, dad went golfing early in the morning and he forgot to wake me up! i think what's on his mind is his swing and how those small little white balls roll on the green. (mom is nodding and agreeing to what i say - dad, can't you see mom needs your attention?! haha..)

then i messaged him "morning, daddy (supposed to sound sarcastic)! you forgot to wake me up. why you didn't wake me up?" i bet tonight when he comes home, he'll say "you didn't confirm with me, right."

i'm truly my dad's daughter..haha..

didn't realise i haven been updating my post till damien commented that. (haha..ok, it's my live feed not working, not yours.) *sigh..honestly, i haven really got time for myself. what i mean is that i'm dying for retail therapy and a movie at some nice place. for the past 36hours, i've been really busy (and i realised i haven't said what i'm busy with) with assignments, workshop and my man. oh well, i'm sure he'll read this post because he has been stretching his neck, waiting for this post. so..i'm sorry that i've been so unconcerned and insensitivity.

i've to apologise to him because it's just so atrocious how i've reacted to him on thurs night when he called.

DA: "hello."
KX: (happily) "hello, you're awake!"
DA: (weakly) "i'm going to see a doctor."
KX: "who's going with you?"
DA: (can't remember but i guess he was speechless)

i mean, "hello kexi..what's wrong with you manz.." after the couple of seconds of awkward silence, i corrected myself by saying "i'll go with you." seriously, i felt like slapping myself for being so insensitive and sounded so unconcerned.

so we went NUH and spent like at least 4hrs there before Da could wink and smile at me again. it was quite a horrible experience actually to see someone in pain till like that. i think my pms is also not as terrible as that. at least i dont have to go through six injections.

but one thing that i felt good about is the kinship. Da's father came down when it was already like 2am near 3. it's so heartwarming! =) it just showed how much concerns and love the family memebers have for each other. it reminded me of my mom and sis. i just sprained my ankle and they rushed down within half an hour to pick me up so that the next day i can go see a sensei.

talking about that incident. it was super funny. lucky my dad didn't buy a manual car else i can't drive myself to see the sensei the next day; or maybe lucky i didn't sprain my right ankle. after seeing the sensei, my mom suggested to go near by for lunch. i was joking about how cruel she was to ask a 'bai-ka' to drive her for lunch and she sits comfortably on the passenger's seat. i guess there's no relationship more important than kinship.

coming back to the main topic: so i went to visit Da the next day. then i told him some "bedtime" stories and he fell asleep. again, before he slept, he asked what if i won't be around when he woke up. i broke my promise. i stepped out to buy something to fill my empty stomach. then when i came back, i saw him sleeping and thought that he didn't know. when he woke up, then i realised he knew i was away for awhile. how silly of me!

today had been a good day! although it was my super long day, i quite enjoyed today's lectures.

in my culture industries lecture, we had a guest speaker - Kumar! he is a superb speaker. he poked fun of the local policies, the races and others. he also spoke about his career and a little about his history. he also talk about how he managed to overcome all those nasty words used on him.

i think i have to agree on what he said:
1. "live for yourself!"
2. "you have to accept yourself before others can accept you."
3. "there's a reason for everyone to be in this world."

well actually, it's really quite true. but how many of us can do it? or maybe i'm speaking for myself. like i've mentioned yesterday, i think i've somehow lost my mafia-ness. i used to be able to dismiss all the comments and remarks. in the past, i can convince myself - "it doesn't matter what they say about you, as long as it pleases you. it doesn't matter what you do, as long as you don't live with regrets; and don't do anything that is against your conscience."just felt that these days i've becoming more reliant on people. sometimes i feel that i'm no longer indepedent; and not doing stuff myself using my own hands and my own means.

i mean it's really nice to have friends around you to help. but i don't want to rely on them all the time. after all, i should learn to say "I CAN DO IT"; and be the cool mafia all over again =)

i got very restless in the evening. it rained. i can't go out. i can't jog. maybe i shall do it tmr evening. alright, i think it's time for me to do my projects...Zzz...

WHERE IS MY MAFIA-ness?

i shall be back to myself. the couldn't care much self. you say whatever you want to say. i do whatever i want to do. i need to be independent again. i can't afford to be reliant and be a burden. keep moving, girl! oh and btw, i'm a chi-na girl.

time check: 3pm (to be exact). the time that this post was created was the moment when i felt like sweating it out. so i went for a jog after uploading these pictures.


was a crazy week. having to hand in three assignments in the same day is MADNESS! these assignments made me missed out playing Buaya Week.


though i've missed out the fun of playing somebody's mystery angel, i still being loved by an angel who didn't bother to be ANONYMOUS.

after my forensic science class, which was 10pm on a friday night, i got back to my room. and i saw my door got buaya-ed with this small, little A4 sized paper.on a closer look, i 've no idea what is the message that this small, little A4 sized paper trying to convey.

Option 1: Someone was buaya-ing Damien by addressing to him and playing a prank on me by signing off using my name; and pasting it on my door.
Option 2: please see Option 1.
Option 3: please read Option 1 and 2. (haha..)


when i got back hall on Sunday night, someone delievered a glowing heart and it was just for me!


the glowing heart with a rose that never wilt =)

SURPRISE NO 1: it is always so nice to have someone prepare breakfast for you especially when it is ai xin zhao chan! (though i'm not a fan of bacon)
SURPRISE NO 2: the warmth by these tealight candles on my table melted my heart! aww..so sweet..the flame melts the candle, warmth melts my heart. (and apparently, the candles were super near my lappy..lucky it didn't melt =P )

"SURPRISE" NO 3: surprise was in inverted commas because i already know that i'll be receiving something. but i little did i expect to have the most unique gift: a pair of keychains that has both our names. so cool manz!
SURPRISE NO 4: after a long day in school, i was super hungry. it's like telepathic; a seafood spaghetti was presented to you for dinner..yummy! =) so tia xing!
SURPRISE NO 5: i can now gaze the stars in my room =) the "stars" are always shining upon you as you sleep under them. so romantic!
though i missed the Buaya Week, i guess after all, i didn't lose much =)

hope you like it! i mean if you don't there is nothing i can do. oh well, just too bad lah okay..haha..

HAPPY BUAYA WEEK!

TO LOVE AND BE LOVED.

looks like you're actually having lots of fun. so i guess you aren't really deprive of me buaya-ing you. let others do the job for just seven days.

just so sorry that i can't really buaya you in this buaya week (but that doesn't mean you can do a sloppy work on my door lor. so NOT sincere! buaya people so well..aiya, don't need to say the second part alr. you know yourself lah..hee =P)

it's kind of sad for me cos' this is my last semester and i can't play it for the last time..*sob sob..super busy with all my deadlines. there's nothing much i can do except photoshop. and yes, another over-used idea once again! also, i want to apologise for being unreasonable and cranky. i kinda just throw my tantrum. but then, i'm so glad you have been patient with me and willing to listen to me.

lots of thoughts when doing this and that. realized haven't done lots of stuff and take lots of pictures. but then, come to think about it, luckily we haven't, else i can't accommodate all the pictures in the small little frame.

black to ash brown.

i'm tired but i can't sleep. no time to sleep. i'm feeling nausea again but i guess it's because of digestion problem. again, left the pills in hall. -_-'''

scary project submission deadline, hate burning midnight oil, fear of permanent pigment, miss my contact lense very much.

come on, girl! jiayou x3

DAY 1 at 8.40AM: FRENCH TOAST WITH heart-shaped YOUTIAO.




to MM, from MM,
i'm just to shy to tell you but i guess actions speak louder than words.

jus cut my hair yesterday. the length of my hair is as long as; or rather as short as the first time when i cut off my long curly hair. but that's according to my sister.

after dinner, i met her up at the hotel to have dinner. when she came down from her office stairs, she said "you look so much better but why you still go and cut the length? I thought you want to have long hair already?" And i told her "cos' it gets screwed up whenever i try to keep it long." apparently, i always go to the wrong place to trim my hair so well, that's just too bad.

this was how long my hair were before i cut it. =)

this is a close-up one..yarpz..they were once my curly long hair..

and yyyYYYaaarRRrpppPPzzz... i cut it WITH NO REGRETS!

this was how short it had become..

actually, i don't really hate short hair. sometimes, i feel i look better with short hair (and my dad agrees!) he was so happy that i cut it short then. i wonder what gave me the courage to make such a great change. guess i was stressed then..honestly, i felt good after cutting it. new and refresh kexi!

looking at the pictures, i feel like going somewhere..out of Singapore. =) cruise trip!

finally, after a day's work..came home this late morning to find my house covered with plastic sheets because of some paintwork. okay, NOT SOME since the whole house is now covered with fresh paint.

the color used for the master's bedroom and living room is barely white..i mean, BARLEY white. apparently, it isn't that white as i imagined it to be. it's so-called off-white or pale yellow. but not bad lah..so no complaints. =P

and my room is pink in color..finally..hurray! so SssswweeeeT lah! (haha..so bimbotic!)
oh, what a pity! can't really see the color from this picture. it's okie..still can see the pi-ink ka-ler My Melody. can you make a guess, between the two photo frame, which one belongs to me?

since my house is kind of under "mini" upgrading, how can my dad possibly slip the chance of changing the lightings. and thanks to him, i almost have to shower in the dark..haha..my sister and i freaked out as we were told that we might be showering in the dark. and we started to be make some noise and my dad said "haiz..the three women in the house..." which is of course my mom, sister and me! poor dad, the one and only man..but hey! not every man get to have three women in the house ok..haha..

lucky we have a table lamp that we bought from IKEA which i didn't bring to hall. you'll never know when you need it in an innovative way.

luckily, IKEA has a extendable table lamp. long enought to be extended into the bathroom.

yeah! we don't need to undergo "army training" - shower in the dark. VICTORY!
*tink! what a brilliant idea. haha. my bimbo sister keeps saying that our bathroom is so retro cos' of the table lamp and the door. just a pity that the bathroom door is not those jade green with brown wooden frames, else it'll be really retro and ILOVERETRO!

totally hate the feeling. don't feel like doing anything, going anywhere; except lying on my bed and hugging my strawberry. oh gosh! feel like crap. how can i feel like doing nothing when my test is tomorrow! this is horrible...

i felt so bad. totally forgotten to call KK before he left sg. to KK: if you're reading this, I AM SORRY that i cant send you off. but when you come back, we shall hang out k (though by the time you come back, it's freaking near my exams..i'll still try to make time..oh well, if not after my exams lah, which is early Dec!)

time to do some stretching to "dispense" the cramps.

i hear somebody's complain..complaining about my priority list. alright, for you i delicate this to post to you.

the first time i heard of you was at the breakfast table. i had no idea who you were, where you came from, what you did because i wasn't interested and i didn't want to care about it. the first time i saw you was when you came to my room and asked me to attend the formal dinner with you as an offically unofficial date. though i hesitated, i didn't know why eventually i agreed to it. (that's not the point, the point is i STILL miss the singles' table, shucks! =P haha)

ever since then, we hit it off pretty well.

i don't know how but somehow, i'm beginning to lay my trust on you (yarp, at an alarming rate!) it shock everyone around me because this is not my usual style. i guess i shouldn't use the word 'style'. many people didn't expect it and they were kind of curious what was going on. i believe until now they still don't understand me and my decisions. i know people are talking about us and honestly, i don't enjoy to be in the lead in the hot topic. i hate to think about what they talk about us. instead of being supportive, it hurts to find out that my friends (or maybe i think they are my friends) are also discussing about it too.

but seriously, i don't care and i don't give a sh*t about it (but by blogging about it, i guess i've already been bothered by it, what an irony!) because it's between us. i believe in myself, like i have faith in you. i surprised everyone but BABY, I'M AMAZED BY YOU.

a bit no originality but oh well you know, i can't sing. i don't know how play guitar. we are not at a place where i can dedicate a song to bunny. so what i can do is to copy and paste the lyrics of Lone Star's Amazed to you.

Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with youIt just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you