i just hate watching romantic, sappy drama series. realistically, such ideal romantic scenes don't exist. they only make you feel romantic, mislead you into fantasizing the ideal romance and makes you expect that the sweetness will happen to you too. they only exist because they are there to fulfill what is lacking in your life.

i mean i do like the sweet feeling, romantic love. it's just that i don't like watching because it just lead you to set a certain standard and expectations. then when your boyfriend failed to respond in the "expected" manner, you will feel he is unromantic. but then face it, life is hard. don't be so hard on your other half.

it rained for the past few days. i was caught in the rain. some memories just flooded my mind. back then, i've a friend who messged me on a rainy day, wanting to sheltered me. the rain was rather light so i thought it would be much of a trouble of my friend to shelter me. besides, i'm already used to not bring umbrella and ran in the rain. though i still ran in the rain that day, i felt a tingling of sweetness. sometimes, it is really not how heavy the rain is, but it's the thought that counts.

recently, i fell in love with a song - My Love will Get You Home by Christine Glass. it is a simple song but i'm so touched by it. because to me, love is just being there for your other half even if it's not physically there. just let me feel your presence and that you care for me, that will do. below is the lyrics.

My love will get you home - Christine Glass

If you wander off too far
My love will get you home
If you follow the wrong star
My love will get you home

If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home, boy
My love will get you home

If the bright lights blinds your eyes
My love will get you home
If your troubles break your stride
My love will get you home
If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home, boy
My love will get you home

If you ever feel ashame
My love will get you home
If its only you to blame
My love will get you home
If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home, boy
My love will get you home

If you ever find yourself
Lost and all alone
Get back on your feet and think of me
My love will get you home, boy
My love will get you home, boy
My love will get you home

just came back from GIANT at tampines. needless to say, it is really huge. and we bought the king and queen of fruits - that is durians and mangosteens. oh, and not forgetting lychees (yummy!). my mom and i are not very into durians so our votes are for mangosteens. whereas my dad and sis are durian-lovers (haha..)

oh my goodness, my sis didnt want her durians to be placed in the car boot so she brought it to the car seats. of cos, the pungent smell was so strong that i kept complaining. not that i dont like durian, it's just that i dont particularly like it. i mean i can live perfectly well without it.

our house's fridge is filled with fruits and the fruit royalties.

though retail therapy, exercise and etc. to de-stress were all done, nothing can compare to just speaking the truth from the bottom of my heart. because i've faced it and already said my piece, footsteps to everywhere are so much lighter now. i just want to live with no regrets.

yes, i finally let it all out. all my thoughts, my feelings.

sometimes, it is really not the outcome that matters. really. what really matters is that i've given all my best. at least that is what i feel. when i ask myself if i've done my best, i can proudly say that i've done everything i can because i've already given my 100 per cent.

it is just so amazing. my advice to everyone, if you have anything you want to say, just let it out. all the way. you'll never know what's the outcome if you don't. even if it is not the desired outcome, at least you know you didn't let yourself down. courage is all you need.

ironic but true, the fireworks now are still beautiful, with a tinge of romantic feeling when watching it. was at Marina last evening, though i didnt see the fireworks (just listen to it cos' was in an Italian Kitchen), i feel romantic.

i guess last weekend i was really down and pessimistic, that's why it was gloomy everyday. ytd, it was so much of a sunny day. all were bright and gay.

cam-whoring with kk, hD and qi was so fun. and my grad trip with them to S.E. Asia and cruise!

my client was convicted to life imprisonment without any trial and was unable to appeal.

i can't believe it, i can't take it. the judge had dismissed the court before i could make my concluding statement. i was totally disappointed. my mind was in a whirl.

one moment, the surrounding seemed unfamiliar to me. the next moment, i had to think where am i. there are so many questions in my head. sometimes, they were so ridiculous till i started to dislike myself.

it was bad until last evening. I was totally inspired. i was so motivated to fight for my client. i have never actually really fight for it before. but i know this time it's different. i see the point for me to fight, work hard for it. at least, let my client died in the prison with no regrets.

i feel wonderful for wanting to strive for it. i suddenly thought that i have always been taking it for granted all this while. now, i want to live with no regrets and i want you to wait and see.

courage and patience are all we need now. really..i promise!

thanks, guys! i'm good now. decision was made but not what Strawberry wanted it to be. guess in this world, there's no perfect situation. no wonder economist always assume. but do you realise that assume makes an A** out of U & ME?

saw fireworks at the lower seletar. when you do go there, you can see Malaysia on your left and OCC on your right. and the later you go, more cars with striking car decals; bombastic stereo systems playing heart-pounding music.

today was peaceful there. quiet. probably i was early. one thing special was the fireworks. it's quite rare to see fireworks. what an irony. in the past, when i see fireworks, i was extremely delighted. just now i had some thoughts on fireworks.

beautiful, colorful but they don't last. they can only be admired at from afar. untouchable, just visual. the beauty of it is they are meant to kept as memories.

i feel like going to KTV or clubbing. i'm not into clubbing but i just feel like expressing my extreme. probably i'll just get somebody to talk to, that will probably prevent me from being off my norm. right, that's it. i found a solution.

gosh, i'm blabbering again. =(

Strawberry is thinking whether or not,

since it is just a matter of one nod.

Communications and trust are all it takes.

Still, it is a difficult decision to make.

No pressure, no pressure;
Strawberry will decide for sure.

for the past two days, my legs had been suffering. both my feet had blisters on Saturday because of my shoes and i fell down this morning when i went jogging with my dad.

kind of sprained my left ankle. it was swollen a little but still managed to brisk walk for 2.5km with dad at the park. but abrasions on my right leg hurt a lot (hee..i dread showering actually). oh well, this wasnt the first time. i had sprained my left ankle and abrasions on my right knee caused by falling on the gravel about last Nov/Dec. it's the old wound that didnt heal completely the last time (yah, again!)

the first time i sprained my left ankle was during exam period. to be exact, it happened 15 minutes before my first paper. it was really humiliating to fall and limp to examination hall. it was even more embarrassing to keep hitting the side of the knee cap and "fan-ning" the abrasions to divert the pain so that i could do my paper.

i wish my abrasions will heal real fast and that it will not leave scar. =(

i had a mixture of feelings for the past few days. i dont know how to describe. felt kind of lost, unhappy but at the same time, i also felt hope, positive. i think it's because of some ambigous statements and actions. furthermore, the departure. that's why the uncertainty that makes me uneasy.

hope all will be cleared up soon.

i'm sooo... AGAINST the evolution of STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE.

Then Now:

i was reading the ST last week and it was said that America Greetings was planning to change the image of Strawberry to become more tech-savvy by making her carry mobile phone!

i'm just so upset that the evolution doesnt make Strawberry cute and sweet. just look at the pictures above, the 90's Strawberry is much cuter, sweeter; and definitely more innocent. i'm not saying that the current Strawberry is foxy, it's just that Strawberry Shortcake is such a classic cartoon since the 80's. Strawberry's innocently sweet character will definitely be lost somehow during the "evolution".

i guess i'll die of high blood pressure the next time i watch Strawberry Shortcake. Instead of teaching viewers (kids) to be friendly and nice to one another, the current Strawberry will be busy answering her phone in a bimbotic manner. the evolution just simply pissed me off! must get the CUTER, SWEETER 90's Strawberry merchandise (that is a STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE BOTTLE) before she is gone for good.

finally something decent for myself. made the rainbow and bubbles. the quote is what i found online. i thought it applies to me.

sometimes we just magnify, or rather, i used to magnify problems or mistakes. it makes me unhappy and dwell on it all the time. i feel that there is too many "WHAT IF" but life doesn't allow that. so i think it's time for me to change my perspective of looking at problems and mistakes; learn from them and do it right the next time.

i torn my cardigan yesterday just before i stepped out of the house. it's a HOT PINK cardigan! i was plannin to cut just the little label at the shoulder. how i know i would cut the thread too! uh-huh, now i've to mend it back of cos, else it'll never wear it out ever again.

finally, something up for myself. though i like the color; the shadow and the sun, i think it's quite badly done.

it's so recycled manz! the sky, the grass patch and the person jumping. these stuff were used previously lah. haiz..spend lots of time brainstorming. guess it's because it's for myself, that's why expectations are higher. also because know myself well, so not sure what is it that i really want to bring it out.

and guess what, i actually missed out on putting my name in..hummp! never mind, will coming up with a new one pretty soon.


oh well..keep working, kexi!

just finished jogging with dad. as i'm waiting for hair to dry, decide to blog.

so, i went to zoo with KK and Hendry yesterday. though there were lots of people because of the World Blood Donor Day, still, i had lots of fun (since it was with them).

in the midst of laughters, saying hi to the animals, we missed Qi.

and yes, a picture paints a thousand words of 'WE MISS HUANG QI' (that's why the yellow flag)..hee..and btw, this is my favourite picture though Hendry took many nice ones. but this is just so symbolic (hee).

we saw the asian-ised polar bear. and guess what, their skin is actually black. it is their white fur that makes them white..erm, not-so-white after all in the picture.

question: zebra-crossing and zebra, which comes first?

wohoo, the crocodile. so cool, right. Hendry rocks manz!

NOTE: there is no such exhibit in zoo.

so as i was saying zoo was packed yesterday because of the World Blood Donor Day. donors who received the postcards are able to exchange for two complimentary tickets to the zoo. probably because it's free, that's why lots of people turned up with their family and little ones. haha..yup, me too! else i've to pay $16+ for entrance fee which rather expensive for a Singaporean. i dont really understand why they didn't set prices for the locals only, instead of charging us prices that tourists are paying too. world class zoo, world class price.

anw, i guess if i were a tourist who went to zoo yesterday, i would be super mad because i can't see the animals (but the people..haha)..so sad!

another poster today..for my SISTER.

i was cracking my brain on how to incorporate her name in. initially, we thought of outlining the skirt with her name (oh yes, she contributed..hee) but it turned out to be pretty ugly (haha..oxymoronic habit is back!) i've asked her already. she likes it. but then she commented that if her friends going to see it, they will think..hahaha..i cant say here because it's between the Fang Sisters.

not sure why, i just dont feel like talking yesterday. i was quite restless in the late afternoon.

anyway, i think sometimes it is quite important to leave mobile phones with your neighbors in case of emergency. like a Chinese saying: neighbor is nearer to you than your relatives when you're in need of help.

yesterday, my neighbor got into an accident. it was pretty serious i'm sure, else the traffic police would have contacted his wife directly on mobile phone. instead, they came to their house and knocked on the door. of cos nobody answered since his wife was at work. luckily, the next-door neighbor came to know about the accident after seeing the traffic police. this neighbor came over to our house and asked my mom if she has the wife's mobile. thank goodness, my mom kept it somewhere.

so that's why i think it's important to exchange contact details with neighbor. but then my mom doesn't like to give our home no. to others.

anyway, just came back from TTSH after visiting this neighbor. so poor thing! his hands and body are tied to the bed. he was not suppose to move because the spine got affected. i wish he will get well soon. it's just so sad to see him being tied and the face is swollen.

to my neighbour: get well soon.
to all motorists : care for yours and others' safety
to all : take care when you're on the road

this is something i did for Qi. i thought kind of too pink-ish. wanted to give a princess-y, girly sweet feeling but i think it's not very well done. i felt it's more like the diva-kind cos' of the glit from the crown. nonetheless, i hope she likes it.

not sure who is reading this blog. hopefully, somebody will give me feedback. =)

with love, a hopeful blogger

yesterday was a suupppeeerr long day. woke up at 6.15am and got out of the house at 7am. reached home at 12.30am.

i went TTSH with dad because he had an examination (not written exam, btw). he had to go through three tests and he had to be injected each time (so poor thing). he must have felt uneasy and depressed. luckily i'm having holiday and able to accompany him. the result is only available in a month's time. hopefully, everything turns out really well.

seriously, i don't understand why the hospital needs such a long time. it really worries the patients and adds on to unnecessary stress. but then, i felt that the hospital service is good. the nurses are so much approachable and look friendlier.

before leaving the hospital, i saw Choon Han and he showed off his white coat to me (bleah!). after that, i went town to walk around. it's quite amazing that i still manage to walk and window-shop from Orchard to Douby Ghaut. finally, my legs gave in and i sat in Thai Express for couple of hours day-dreaming.

then, i went to watch 'Accuracy of Death' with my sister. the movie was really simple but enjoyable, partly because of takeshi kaneshiro. he is still so cute and handsome, especially when he is acting as informant. i was thinking if a Shinigami is to ask me "what do you think of death", i guess i won't be afraid because i have no regrets for now. but i bet i miss my family and friends.

after the movie, my sister actually wanted me to accompany her to her gathering at Holland V (can't believe it!) but then, it didnt turn out as horrible as i thought. the topic they were talking about was quite funny. but felt a bit bad because we stayed until NYDC literally going to close (the music was off already though..haha)

Done with KK's

For K.K.:

hope you like this poster i made for you. took some time to design because i really can't think of any idea. guess that's because we shared so much with each other and the mutual understanding kind of deepens. i hope this poster will inspire and motivate you to move on when times are harder for you. Thanks for sharing with me all your thoughts and feelings. It really means a lot to me. Jiayou ya, will always be there for you.

Something for my friends

For Charles:

"Welcome home! Time for all the 'bak-kut tehs', 'bak-kwas' and all the 'baks'. Thanks for allowing me to flood your msn even when you are offline. I designed this artwork to thank you for being there =) well, though this is not 100 per cent original, still i hope you like it"




For Hendry:

"School's in and it's time to go back to school. So good luck and all the best in SMU. Don't forget about us when school starts okie. We still need you to take pretty pictures of us with your antique camera (the one that needs "fee-lim")."

Up next are KK's and Qi's (but will take some time to do lah cos' tonight will be out to watch movie - Made of Honor)..

Class Assignments

this assignment is titled: Talking Forms.

it was group activity that was meant to complete during lecture. i did this exercise with two other friends. the lecturer gave our group two topics to work on: "ingenious" and "surprise".

below are the ideas that we came up with after consulting the tutors.

some basic requirements are to use basic elements (i.e. line and dot) to create 2 abstract / semi-abstract representative images conveying meaning of each word. Also, there are only two colors to be used (excluding paper color).

Assignment 6: Design Analysis

the eighth tutorial (01/04):

it's april's fool! anyway, this week's tutorial is rather relaxing because the subject that we are supposed to present is not design by us (aww..) so this assignment is to find a good and bad posters that allow us to apply theories on them. so below are the...

GOOD...


for the GOOD:
there is flow in looking at the picture. from the sun to the tagline, down to the stream and finally to the foreground. cool colors (blue and green) are used. the color scheme is analogous because there are different shades of green.

1. sun - principles of visual: expressive line -> jagged lines express energy or anger.
2. trees - principles of visual: similarity -> the trees are similar to one another.
3. windmill - gestalt principles: closure -> the triangles shape out the windmill.
4. small shrubs - complementary color -> the green is a cool color and red color is a warm color; both are opposite of each other in the color wheel.
5. ducks - principles of visual: contrast in size -> the ducks are of different sizes.
6. stream - gestalt principles: continuity -> the stream is as if flowing from the background to the foreground.
7. sheep - gestalt principles: proximity -> the sheep are closed to one another so it is depicted as a group.

as for the bad:
i guess you just have to read it. seriously, just try reading it and time yourself. i think the circles make it so hard for readers' to get the message. furthermore, the gradient makes the white color words "fade" into the background. i hope you have fun reading but don't torture your eyes when doing so (hee..)

..and the BAD...

Assignment 5: Greeting Card (theme: LOVE)

the seventh tutorial (25/03):

my greeting card was more or less 90 percent complete before this tutorial. there was one problem pointed out - the text.

as the heart needed wide spaces, the words should not stretch too much across. in addition, the spacing between the lines were rather compact. so i've made some modification to it by expanding space between the lines and shrinking the size of the words. below is my final work:

hope you like it. =)