Dear Weilong,

It must be hard on you these days, especially for the past three days. You must have a tough time sleeping in at night; puzzling over this weird girlfriend of yours. I must have got you all mixed up and confused. I am so sorry that i have caused you such terrible turmoil.

I know i have been so angsty and being unreasonable. It is quite irresponsible of me if i keep shrugging my shoulders and say "i dont know why i keep blowing up." i shall not justify for my angst here, instead i will apologise for what i did and how i reacted. I hope i have not over-used my apology until it has lost its value.

You must be hurting. I've broke my promise to you because you trust that i will not be angry over trivial things. But yet again, i've failed you. You must have been very disappointed in me because i am acting like a child again.

Dar, you really dont deserve such treatment because you are the sweetest boyfriend. You have always been very forgiving and tolerant towards my bad-tempered. Everytime I get angry, you try to talk me through; understand from my point of view. You really have an impressive tolerance level! But i know that everyone has their limit, i hope i've not pushed you to the corner.

I know you are having a rough time especially now that exams are nearing. Still i'm not being understanding enough. i should have know that you need your break time. you need your space with your friends. Unfortunately, being the selfish me, i only want you to accompany me. I always think that your Friday, Saturday and Sunday belong to me. Yes, i really think (i believe you think so too) that i am quite ridiculous.

Sorry, dar. I hope that i can be a better girlfriend so that you dont have to suffer. Pls forgive me and help me be the girlfriend that you want to be with okay. I love you!

With love,
Kexi.

my feeling this evening like a roller coaster. somebody just brought me to the highest point then down again.

i guess it's more like the feeling of disappointment. initially, there is something to look forward to because it was well-planned. then suddenly, something crops up and there goes the plan. yays!

oh well, that's life. some things just dont go your way. haha. anyway, if everything is nicely planned out, i believe there wont be a word called - SURPRISE!

anyway, putting aside the disappointment, i'm quite happy cos my tutor from poly still remembers me! he sent his regards. haha. my stats tutor. so nice of him manz. see, i must have been the best student around. haha

talking about the word - TUTOR, i am so angry. i've been contacting the grandmother of this family to pay me for my tuition fee. she still has the CHEEK to say "i will never cheat your money." i am so going to tell her "I HOPE YOU DONT LIE TO YOUR GRANDCHILDREN LIKE YOU LIE TO ME, GRANDMOTHER."

i have a feeling that i cant recover that money. in fact, i'm 99% sure. nonetheless, i am NOT going to give up. i swear i will go to their house this weekend. if they have really moved, like they have claimed to, i rest my case. i will treat that tuition fee as charity. that tuition fee has taught me NOT TO TRUST BLACK ANTS! whatever comes out from their mouths are SH*T.

seriously, i think i'm quite evil. i was hoping that the granddaughter would flunk all her exams. but then again, i think this "prophecy" will be come true cos' apparently, she is pretty lazy and doesnt do my homework. better still, her grandmother also helped to defend her. look, there is ONLY FOUR SUBJECTS, just how much homework can a primary schoolchildren has.

now i see where those excuses come from. IT RUNS IN THE GENES; like grandmother, like granddaughter.

pimple POPS! finally! yay!

today is monday. to be exact, it's END OF MONDAY. haha. jus realised somehow that week wheezed past so quickly. hooray! wkend is coming!

anw, i felt so proud of myself yesterday. i woke up at 6.30am ON A SUNDAY to run. then right after my run, i BAKED A CAKE! keke. cool right.

this sun is my second 10km run. it will be different from the first one because Minghui and i are running together. wohoo! hopefully i wont be too slow for her. haha. anyway, even if i am, i'll sure ask her to go ahead without me.

actually, i dont have any confidence in this run (cos' i've been slacking =P) haha. oh well, hope for the best though. at least maintain the timing. hehe =)

i'm so tired.

mentally and physically. haha..acually more of a mentally. now as i'm typing, i am blinking non-stop. brain slowed down. eye lid getting heavier.

yawns!

some men jus irk me!

i was waiting by the roadside to cross the road. suddenly, this lorry "blinked" his headlights. then after that, it went past me. the driver...ARGH! turned and smiled at me. i was furious and i wanted use the universal language.

today, i was washing my bottle in the pantry. then, this person (didnt even want to recognise that he is a male) came to the pantry to fill up his bottle too. while i was washing my bottle, he was filling his bottle, the light went off (was a timer switch. when u clicked, it will turn on. after awhile, it will go off). as my hands were soapy, i cant switch it on.

i thought to myself: if this guy went to switch on the lights after he filled his bottle, tat's good and thumbs up. but if he doesnt, i'll discount the guys in the whole building.

true enough, after he filled his bottle, he walked out! he didnt even bother to help me switch on the lights. wah piang! slap him ah.

I SO HATE THESE SORT OF HUMAN. they should stop taking up space on Earth so that there will be better men out there.

seriously, if a man is only good to his partner nicely but treats the rest of the world like dirt, i'm definitely grossed out. i hate guys who are totally ungentleman. ARGH!

i think the trainer doesnt like me.

the training program discussed about listening. i was told that i always "fly off but manage to come back quickly". yays! i've a pair of DREAMY EYES.

keke...anyway, the class is not that lousy lah. i've learnt something.

if a b c d e f g h i j k l m n o p q r s t u v w x y z is represented as 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 respectively, do you know how much LOVE adds up to?

12 + 15 + 22 + 5 = 52. sadly, love only adds up to 52 so CUT THE CRAP ABOUT I LOVE YOU WHOLEHEARTEDLY! it only takes up 52%..haha..

make a guess, what makes up 100%?

time for grey's!